I got up and went to work. I was a foggy bitch and nothing was bringing my spirits up. It's like mourning a loss of a loved one to some extent. The loss of this child.
There's was an angel on Twitter that somehow got me to see the light and gave me a glimmer of hope. Evil Twin's Wife explained things to me on a level that made sense. Hope is not yet lost for this cycle. I may be looking at it too soon. Somehow she got me to come around with a bit of hope to trudge on for a few more days. Thank you so much. I'm hoping this was a sign from God that sent me an angel to keep hope alive.
I'll be testing again tomorrow. I'm going to try a new test too. I better get to scouring Google to find the best option out there.