28 September 2008

Introspection

It's another Sunday afternoon alone and I'm sitting here in a generalized funk.  I've started to do the "where am I now and where is this heading" analyzation.

Am I speeding right towards the court house to sign the divorce papers?

I am sitting here alone again this weekend.  Hubby is gone all weekend again.  The little bit of time he is home I'm just bitter with him for being gone all the time.  It's almost like he doesn't want to be home anymore.  

We had a night out Friday night and he payed more attention to his friend than me.  He rolled back into home at 10 last night.  He was up and gone by 630 this morning.  This is the third weekend in a row where I have been completely alone.

Is this preparation for being alone?  Is he trying to get me ready for single life?  Are we both sabotaging this marriage?  

I just hate days like this were I have too much time on my hands to think things through long and hard.


5 comments:

Jennybean said...

fell you pain chicka...

pure evyl said...

I know what you mean. I hate having too much time on my hands.

Sugardaddy said...

These are the days to lay on the couch, watch Lifetime movies, and eat eclairs.
Hope your day got better........

Southern Sage said...

well I hope it got better from when you posted this. Maybe your week will be excellent.

Slick said...

I'm assuming you've talked to him?

I know Trish would let me "have" it if I left 3 weekends in a row....

Good luck, girl....thinkin' about you